Doubts

Sometimes I have doubts about what I'm doing and where I am. I know leaving my ex was the right thing to do. No doubts about that! But where I am now, that is what I'm feeling doubtful about. For the most part I've been happy. Happier and better off then I've been in years but I keep getting this feeling that the bottom is going to fall out any minute.

The truth is, even though D & S say I have a home here, they could at any time revoke that and send me packing. The truth is, even though they call me family, I am not. The truth is, I will not be staying here forever. I have no true roots. They may make believe and talk and make plans that I will be but honestly, if I were to get sick, lose my job, or just irritate someone would I really be welcome any more?

What I need to do, now that I'm starting to get my finances back on track is save every cent I possibly can (for a decent sized down payment on a piece of property someday) and to protect myself. Nobody is going to look out after me in this wide world but me. I know this. Which kind of makes you feel quite alone in the world.